We'll be twelve forever

Why do people long for their childhood so much? I suppose I'm not wrong saying, that it's because they miss the times of not knowing certain stuff. The lawful ignorance, careless and jolly, makes the meeting with facts especially rough. You realize that knowledge is one of the things that sticks to you the more, the more you want to get rid of it. The awareness that there's now way back made me an existentialist and ridiculously serious kid at some point. One of these awkward moments were when I confronted with a unpleasant fact, was when I had a phase of inventing stuff. These weren't of course any hi-tech ideas, but I was quite proud of them. And each time I presented colorful scheme of some device, my father honestly informed, that though it is a smart and pretty thing, it has been done before. People already use it, the same or similar concept has been maintained for decades or even centuries. The bitter disappointment of those moments sometimes returns when I read or hear thoughts that I was sure were my own. When I was twelve I thought this is the perfect age. You are not a total kid any more, you are capable to understand some complex issues, but you are not yet a freaky teenager or grumpy grownup. I wished it would last for ever. It might have been the point when I knew enought to think that everything is comprehendible, but not enough to realize that there's a never ending space of the unknown that can make you feel dizzy and insecure. Then after years that eventually have past I've seen a document about Michel Gondry, called "I've been 12 forever". Shoot. Again. It wasn't so bad, as I like him a lot, so somehow I explained to myself that it's even fine that a real film director repeats your words. So following my private chronology I overcame the disappointment and started to explore the work of my age-buddy. I found out that he made most of the clips I adore, so our bond of sympathy had grown as that was a proof of his good taste. For instance, here's a result of his cooperation with Bjork:



Gondry made 7 clips for her- big respect.He reveals also other values of Being Twelve. He follows his surrealistic ideas, makes them live, doesn't care that something can't be done, he just does it. And each time I see his video I have the feeling that he actually had fun when he worked on it. The twelvish innocent hedonism - very rare, and how precious!



I love it, it's like dreaming. What would of course be an allusion to his full-length films, Oscar, fame, pride, prestige, and all the rest which I won't mention because this would evaluate to a Gondry-dedicated vlog, what it's not. Anyhow what could one accuse him of is that he sold himself to the commercial business somehow. He made loads of advertismemnts for the biggest companies. But I would fight for him, for me it's a good thing that Gondry actually makes something valuable for masses. For me it's more like a subliminal aesthetic education - very noble when you think about all the junk that's on tv. Just to present a drop from the ocean, here's on of his adds:



Well then. Frankly I don't feel bad about our redundant thought anymore. This didn't brake me, I keep on inventing, I've just moved to a more abstract register. And after all, I simply couldn't get cross with someone with a french accent.